Tuesday, October 18
You know, I never had this kind of feeling before, like I'm so sick and tired of studying, and studying and studying. Absolutely. This kind of life is draining me out so much. I wonder how I can survive my four long years here.
Or maybe it's just another one of my temperamental pessimistic mood bouts. I have lots of them. And then again, I feel very detached from everything. I feel detached from my friends, my school work, my everything, and mostly my God. Any further and I might just scream 'Why has thou forsaken me?!'. But that's not that point. What am I doing here anyway? I don't have the motivation for anything any more.
I'm starting to face reality in that perspective I've never seen it in before. Reality as in you are probably gonna face life in that same old mundane way. Right now for me it's the exams, after exams, after exams. Kinda numbing. Surprised I've never felt that way before, even during A levels.
I seem way too pessimistic these days. My blogging is very much affected. Maybe it's just the stress that I can't handle right now.
Posted by Isabelle at 2:49 am